Celebrate that body

"You're fat! "
"I Need to diet. :( "
"I am too short "
"My skin is too dark "

I believe the twenty first century is a blessed era to live in ,with technology and all we now no longer have to carry water up a hill ,hand washing our laundry is almost becoming an ancient practice and of course with electricity we now have non stop entertainment over the internet ,some of us can go ranting to  random strangers on the internet; as I am clearly an example. This wind of technology and development  carried along the heavily chemicalized and surgically enhanced cosmetic industry.

Just like another girl in the big bright city of Nairobi I am caught up in this mess, Me of all people; I was raised in a small town outside Nairobi where they taught us in school as long as we showered we were  beautiful.I have used cooking fat occasionally in my childhood.In addition I didn't Use body lotion until I was in my second year in high-school. Look at me now, my tabledresser has five dIfferent lotions but I honestly can't recall feeling as good as that little girl I once was  with heavily cracked skin and dry to the point of bleeding lips running around the shamba hiding from the English teacher. I was free then, I didn't have to take time to prepare to leave the house, I just wore anything comfortable and decent and I left the house. May the good Lord bless my upbringing. Those were the blessed years when  everyone seemed to see past you're body,you just had to show up and exchange goofy smiles with my  bandit friends and make memories doing all sorts of mischief and there will be no evidence in the  form of photos to haunt your naughty self ever again  .

Before all this perfect size adverts in the media  and selfie madness no one asked about Your weight or skin color. I am fully aware of the skinny and all about the base wars and I don't want none of that, I just want to reminisce and take you to the point of appreciate every inch of you. The person you were before instagram.
So what if they don't like you skinny nigga with no abs, you have an amazing brain. a lady with curves trying to make them edges but why don't you like you?  A lady with no curves or with curves, what's the big deal.
Our bodies are in constant motion our colors are changing our weight is up and down everytime, why don't we learn to appreciate what we have in every stage of our life ? 

After all we were once flawless babies and our bodies are evolving to wrinkled grannies 

Let's celebrate ourselves everyday!

THE PERSON IN THE MIRROR

There was so much chaos in my head, a clear indication I was no longer in control and you were Nothing but poison to my heart. The noises in my head didn't stop their rantings and musings, I went through that day on the verge of crying and throwing a tantrum at anyone who I shared a room with that day. I felt irreparable, desperate and unwanted.

I barely managed through that day but I did get home with the fake smile I had been wearing that day, it was prayer time when I got home I rushed to the bathroom to take my ablution .
As I was cleaning my nose I looked up to the mirror into my face

My eyes were dead there was no life in them, my skin was so dry as I now rubbed my cheek, my lips were on the verge of bleeding due to cracks. I put on the mirror light to get a cleaner look of my face and this time tears started rolling.

What had I done to myself?

All this while I had been trying to fix a friendship that was clearly not meant  to be  I was drawing further apart from the person who needed me most ;The person in the mirror.

The person who stared right into my heart. The fact that she was crying broke my heart.  I had taken things too far.  I resolved to fix that

I have since that day I have put the person in the mirror first. There is No one or Nothing worth her tears.

Grief taught me the value of taking care of me because that's who I can control. No matter how bad I want something or somebody it's better to withdraw if it is causing you unnecessary burdens before you get to the point of no return.

It's awesome to be at this point of life where I am comfortable in my own skin. When my phone goes off and I become ecstatic at the fact of spending time to myself.
I am loving every bit of me since I learned me matters